May 2012
3 posts
7 months ago, I was pleading for you to stay. But you didn’t. If you did however, I wouldn’t have found out that things eventually gets better. Some days I miss you and all the good talks we had. I still love you, but I guess I just don’t like you anymore. It happens. I’m sorry.
April 2012
11 posts
I don't like the memories because the tears come...
It sucks when you miss that one person so much that you look through old photos, old messages, even old statuses. And it brings back a smile to your face, but then the hurt comes back and you know you shouldn’t be looking back, but you can’t help it because it really meant something to you and you thought it would have lasted.
deep down, i'm still confused about you
I don't even care anymore.
jamieebbyx3:
Now I know what it’s like to have one of those “idgaf” attitude. Because, honestly I don’t anymore. I’ve gotten to the point where I need to learn that people in the world are mean and always will be. Everyone that told me they would always be there for me lied. And, I don’t think I can trust people anymore. They take advantage of my effort and happiness to make them feel better,...
March 2012
5 posts
...And I wish I didn't need you so bad.
Things can get better again
I’ve been through so much and for the longest time, I was not happy at all. Ive been screwed by so many guys that I became bitter about everything. I became so negative and I remember telling myself that “it’s impossible to be happy again”… But after all that, I realized that things can get better again. I realized that all you really need are your true friends who...
February 2012
26 posts
lent
I decided to give up junk food and any other unhealthy food for lent. I’ve never given up anything before for lent, i dont know why but I just never did it. Let’s see how far this takes me, but I kinda cheated already… :(( i had a bag of chips. I felt guilty in the end. I’m really gonna try this time though! promise.
you just never completely lose feelings for...
Trust Issues
I seriously wish my mom trusted more than she did. She constantly questions where I am 24/7 and even when i’m telling her the truth, she still thinks im lying, and she ends up getting mad at me for nothing. She doesn’t trust me with anything whatsoever and it’s sad cos she treats me soooo different from my brother and sister. She doesn’t care where they go and what the hell...
It's just one of those days when I'm randomly...
17 years old...
Today’s another day that I turn a year older. I can’t believe that I’m already 17…one more year and I’ll be an adult. Its crazy! I’m scared to grow up, I wanna stay young forever. But hey, its a year closer to being 21 (; if ya catch my drift, lmao im jusss playiin. But forreal, I’m grateful for a lot of things. I thank my parents to bringing me to this...
queenofpinkkk asked: how did you get your hair that longgggg :/ i wish my hair would grow out that longg.
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Because of you, I don't know how to let anyone...
One conversation can change everything.
I was doing fine without you, I was living life the way I did before I met you. I finally learned to accept things. And then out of nowhere, I get a text from you….an apology text. You told me how you felt about everything, how you missed me, that I meant something to you, and that you liked me. You said things that you would have never said before. You sucked up your pride and apologized...
Conversation with God
Me: God can I ask you a question?
God: Sure
Me: Promise u won't get mad
God: I promise
Me: Why did u let so much stuff happen to me today?
God: What do u mean?
Me: Well, I woke up late,
God: Yes
Me: My car took forever to start,
God: Okay
Me: at lunch they made my sandwich wrong & I had to wait,
God: Huummmm...
Me: On the way home, my phone went DEAD, just as I picked up a call.....
God: All right
Me: And on top of it all off, when I got home ~I just want to soak my feet in my new foot massager & relax. BUT it wouldn't work!!! Nothing went right today! Why did you do that?
God: Let me see, the Death Angel was at your bed this morning & I had to send one of the other angels to battle him for your life. I let you sleep through that.
Me (humbled): OH
GOD: I didn't let your car start because there was a drunk driver on your route that would have hit you if you were on the road.
Me: (ashamed).........
God: The first person who made your sandwich today was sick & I didn't want you to catch what they have, I knew you couldn't afford to miss work.
Me (embarrassed): Ok
God: Your phone went dead bcuz the person that was calling was going to give false witness about what you said on that call, I didn't even let you talk to them so you would be covered.
Me (softly): I see God
God: Oh and that foot massager, it had a shortage that was going to throw out all of the power in your house tonight. I didn't think you wanted to be in the dark.
Me: I'm sorry God
God: Don't be sorry, just learn to trust me.....in all things, the good & the bad.
Me: I will trust you
God: And don't doubt that my plan for your day is always better than your plan.
Me: I won't God. And let me just tell you God, thank you for everything today.
God: You're welcome child. It was just another day being your God and I love looking after my children......
For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord. Isaiah 55_8
That random flashback which brings back painful...
I can't tell if it's killing me, or making me...
Stop holding on to what hurts and make room for...
I was doing fine without you. I finally learned how to live without you, and move on with my life. I stopped thinking about you, and erased you from my mind. I stopped hoping for things to be the way they were before. My life didn’t revolve around you anymore. And I was finally happy again…. But then I saw pictures of US together, and I couldn’t help but be upset again. All the...
January 2012
111 posts
Pretty Little Liars
This is the only reason why I like Mondays. I cant wait for tonights episode. Can they please just reveal who A is? I kinda think its Jenna…who else agrees with me?
Happy camper
I’m in such a good mood today. It actually feels weird considering I haven’t felt like this in a while. I hope it stays like this from now. I’m so so so happy. Thank you for everything<3